I feel no Joy in Life : Aurum Sulph Homeopathic Cured Cases, Homeopathy Remedies, Treatment

The obvious remedies in this analysis were Natrum Mur, Sulphur, Ignatia and Aurum. But none of them fitted the whole picture. She told me that she always felt better when she took Sulphur – “it is good for my system and seems to suit me”. But it never brought about any lasting relief over the last 3-4 years. This information allowed me to consider the possibility of Natrum Sulph or Aurum Sulph. I realized that Natrum Sulph was more prominently Psora-Sycotic Miasm, while Aurum Sulph would be more Psora-Syphilitic, given the combination of elements. From her past history and family history of diseases suffered, the analysis was a Psora-Syphilitic expression rather than Psora-Sycotic.

When talking with her, I understood that the central and most limiting factor for her was the joylessness she felt in her heart, with no value for her life and the constant suicidal feeling associated with it. The suppressed grief and anger was just a small part of her disturbance. It is the most prominent symptoms of mental state decide the predominant miasmatic expression. I see Joylessness with a suicidal tendency as syphilitic expressions. If suppressed grief and anger was more limiting it would point to a Sycotic expression. The 3 rubrics in red were the deciding rubrics for me. So Aurum Sulph was a better choice over Natrum Sulph from the Miasmatic perspective as well.

She told me that she had been given Nat Mur many times in the past which had never helped. In fact she would either prove it or aggravate on it emotionally. She had also been given Thuja which did very little.

After the first dose of Aurum Sulph 200, here is her followup:
"I guess what is astonishing about all of this is after taking the aurum sulph, I began to put on weight very quickly about 6 kilos in 5 weeks, all digestation problems were remarkably improved and physical energy had improved dramatically. Three weeks after taking it I did a 22km trek up to Gomuk with no adverse effects. Also As we had to stay in Gomuk at few days due to landslides, I had to eat what I would say was not very hygienically prepared food again with no adverse effects."

So far she has had about 4 doses of the 200C. She says that no other remedy so far has agreed with her so well, and though she may have a long way to go emotionally and spiritually, she certainly feels she’s on her way to deep recovery. She has felt following the remedy, short episodes of deep joy - when she went for a swim in the sea – which was deeply exhilarating, something she has not felt in years.

4 months on Aurum Sulph 200, this is her follow-up in the first week of August:

“With regards to physical symptoms, no diarrhea, semi solid to solid stools every day. Minimum gas and bloating. I’m eating a normal diet and no problem with it. Do feel plugged up following meals sometimes or if i eat extra which can be uncomfortable. Grinding of teeth at night (old symptom). Do use gum guard but spit it out during night. Lots of hair loss, falling out in bunches (old symptom). Blocked nose sometimes, sneezing and watery eyes , possibly due to damp in flat , although flat was treated for damp. Blocked nose worse for lying down and when i wake up in morning (Old Symptom).

Was having difficulty sleeping at night, checking all rooms in flat when i hear a noise, having frightful dreams that robbers are going to break in .One night i was sure I heard the robber shout my name through the letter box. it seemed so real. This has started to improve the last few nights. Feel like i am too sensitive for all of this. When i 'm out i worry about how I'm going to get home, if I’m safe etc. Don't feel like this in India.

On visitng my home country I observed how my half sisters are so close to dad and stepmother. They are very affectionate with each other, sharing hugs and kisses and telling them their problems. I envy this and when I see it, I feel I don't know real love or never had real love. I'm sure my mother loved me , but I just don't remember it. I certainly don't share the closeness they have and am not close to anyone in my life.

My aunt told my father that she had found a letter written by my mother. The letter had enclosed some money, so my aunt could buy me and sis sweets. It's one of the rare occasions I hear anything about my mother, especially in relation to me. This brought tears to my eyes but I didn’t respond. Even though I would really like to have the letter but am afraid of opening the can of worms and causing pain to me, dad etc.

I find my father's company very hard to tolerate. I can only be in his presence for 30 minutes at a time. I find him overbearing and his physical presence disgusts me. Some of his mannerisms also disgust me like touching my food as he puts it on my plate, I could scream at him. Sometimes I look at him and, I just feel repulsed. I know when Dad passes away I will be deeply affected by it. I know he will do anything for me.

Sometimes I fell really sad for no reason and tears will come to my eyes but it passes.

Came back home and took 200 Aurum Sulph that night, 25th July. Again feel as if i am just watching myself exist. I feel like I am existing and not living. You asked me if I have the ability to feel joy (subsequent to the remedy). YEs on very rare occasions and for a very short time. I would say I am depressed, no joy, however one big change is right now I could not imagine killing myself. The desire to commit suicide is gone, but the desire to die is still lingering. Thoughts of suicide have been with me on and off but always in the background for many years (8-9).

Maybe I should have said i feel a lack of joy as opposed to being depressed or is it the same thing , I'm not sure. Also, what gets me down is the fact that I 'm back to routine. Soon, I will be getting a train to work every am, same thing day in day out. Yawn. I'm adverse to work when I'm not there but will work hard whilst there.”

I wanted to check whether Aurum Sulph still covered this picture and so I did a short analysis above. Aurum (Met) came up on top covering all rubrics along with Conium and Nat Mur as differentials. Her hair loss improved after the dose as well as the fear of robbers. It helped her sleep well. I suggested that the next dose should be a 1M of Aurum Sulph instead, as the 200 action did not seem to last long enough.

"Took 1M on 25th August as emotionally I was going down the slippery slope of depression. The following day I listened to bhajans, chanting and cried a few tears, another emotional meltdown. Since then I have been feeling much more postitive. Depression has lifted and physical symptoms all getting better.Sleeping well, no nightmares, plugged up feeling gone. Aurum sulphur is definetely right for me, I guess I burn up the energy of it pretty quickly. There is still some hairloss."

She continues to respond in a positive direaction. I think this is a classic state of Aurum Sulph. Time will still tell whether she will need another remedy or intercurrent remedies. For the moment though, this looks like a good constitutional remedy.

Vermeullens Synoptic says this:

"In the foreground, there is introversion, and a critical attitude to himself and particularly to others. Seldom satisfied with himself and others. As a result, often ill-tempered; can be clumsy." [Vithoulkas]

"Usually they have a strong desire to improve others by telling them what they should do. They feel that they know what is best for others, and that they have the right to correct and criticise others." [Wulfsberg]

He is becoming weak-minded and indolent; will not work, becomes like a tramp. These states change to excitement and a mania for work. [Kent]

"Desire to be effective. In order to be effective they try to do several things at once." [Wulfsberg]

M It should become an excellent remedy for insanity, irresolution and extreme irritability; moaning and lamenting. [Kent]

"All Aurums have vivid, horrifying, terrifying dreams. The Aurum sulph. can, occasionally, have pleasant dreams – it is the only one." [Priestman]

"They don't tend to take themselves seriously and can laugh at themselves and their mistakes at home, but not at work. Due to restlessness they have a desire for change and to travel. Like Sulphur they can have many plans and ideas. … Their main motive is to invent or do something that gives them fame, approbation and recognition." [Wulfsberg]

M "Directness and aversion to company. The Aurum sulphuricum patient is an open and direct person, who clearly states his opinion and doesn't hide his emotions. He usually is powerful and energetic. You often find a kind of roughness in his way of speaking, from which you can feel that he has the strength to impose himself if necessary. Aurum-s. patients always prefer to be alone. A distinct aversion to company is a must for the prescription of this remedy." [Springer, Hom. Links 1/97]

I feel no Joy in Life: Aurum Sulph

Vermeullens Synoptic says this: