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Needing to feel appreciated is what can cause tremendous anticipatory
anxiety in Palladium related to their performance in exams
or public speaking as they create high expectations of themselves.
This can appear very much like Silica, Argentum Nitricum,
in partially taken histories.
They are often guided by what they believe is the right thing to
do in life. And they can get rigid about avoiding doing wrong, or
doing things in a particular way. They sincerely believe that they
have learnt the best way to achieve the best results. Complementary
to this, is a fear of failing to do things the right way, as they
have a fear of being rejected or unloved. So they can appear flexible
(Pulsatilla) till they find something that works best. Hence
the rubric:
o Stubborn, but tries to appear amiable.
Some of the central rubrics in Palladium are more clearly
expressed in areas whey they lack confidence or feel insecure.
o Delusion, forsaken
o Delusion that he is neglected
To understand the feeling behind this, we can differentiate with
remedies that have this feeling as well: Argentum Nitricum, Hyos,
Puls
Argentum Nitricum: The feeling here is of being despised
for not being able to handle crisis situations well. They feel at
fault within (errors of perception, hidden irrational motives for
actions) which they try to hide. They always feel they have to find
a way out of a crisis. IF they do not, they feel trapped, hence
the fear of closed spaces. In this struggle, they can often feel
neglected by their close family when they do not get their approval.
Palladium does not feel despised, but rather needs to work
hard to be good enough or the best so that they wont be neglected
or unloved. The need for approval is in order to keep feeling good.
Hyoscyamus: A person needing Hyos seeks to attract
attention at any cost to avoid feeling forsaken. And this would
include even shameless or provocative behavior. They clown at a
party just for the attention they get.
In the Palladium state a person would never appear shameless
to the objective eye they would appear like very 'nice' confident
people who seem to have it all together, and so may seem unreachable
(Haughty), or otherwise they would be completely and pitifully
vulnerable to/with the person/people from whom they seek this attention
and approval.
Pulsatilla: A person needing Puls would be very clingy,
seek attention to be comforted and protected. They can be manipulative
to get attention if necessary and can try to please in any way possible
for this. They feel dependant on others for survival and hence seek
this attention.
Palladium is not dependant on someone else for survival,
unless there is a Spiritual bonding as in a marriage or in
a coach/athlete relationship. Instead the forsaken feeling reflects
a fear of not being good enough for the other person and so, constantly
seeks to hold attention with attempts to do their best to please.
Both are > consolation. Palladium is not in the rubric Jealousy
so it is not an obvious expression.
Once the person reaches this point of feeling forsaken, then the
other aspects of the pathology in remedy are expressed:
o Weeping from humiliation.
o Delusion, insulted, he is.
o Delusion, neglected, he is
o Offended, easily
Here some aspects of Pulsatilla and Platina can be
seen. Palladiums feel easily offended and insulted from lack
of appreciation. Their response is to weep easily (like Puls). They
feel immensely sad and weep for almost everything, but the exciting
factor is some situation of humiliation. Platina can be openly
offensive in return, due to a deep feeling of inferiority or being
scorned (syphilitic miasm) and a compensatory feeling of superiority.
Palladium does not feel basically inferior, but has specific
areas where they lack confidence and so they feel that they are
not good enough (sycotic miasm). Hence the scorned feeling in Platina
is completely different from the humiliation that Palladium
feels.
Phosphorous is a remedy that can resemble Palladium
in many aspects, and often may be complementary in a person. Phos
is predominantly Tubercular miasm while Palladium is Sycotic
miasm. Both need attention and love, and seek to please others for
this love - the flip side is that they may be exhausting in ther
demands. The major difference is that Phos may be more self
sacrificing in giving love, while Pall creates expectations
to succeed and be the best, as they fear being rejected and unloved
if they were not.
They are both vivacious and friendly and eager to help in inter-relationships.
Phos is less grounded and relationship boundaries are unclear.
Palladium can be more grounded and relationship boundaires
are role based except in situations where there are deep spiritual
connections. Both are better from rubbing and 'magnetism'.
Scholtons description: As we can see, this is a one-sided
picture of Palladium, an aspect that could be part of the
Palladium pathology in certain situations, but often one
may miss a Palladium prescription if one is looking only
for this.
-Successfully showing your works of art:
They feel that they will finally succeed in showing what they can
do. They know what they are worth and are fully confident in putting
it across to the public. They are sure that they have enough inspiration
to create something that will be a success.
- Performance is easy, it comes naturally:
Their performance speaks for itself, they were made to perform.
Even in childhood they loved to act and they love being the centre
of attention. They sparkle at parties, only to arrive home completely
exhausted and alone.
- Their honest conviction that they are brilliant
and talented can easily turn into pride. They start to speak with
the air of someone who has made it.
- The sportsman who has reached the top:
This is the stage in which the sportsman has really made it. He
is standing on the highest platform, receiving the first prize.
It can also be the sportsman who stays at the top year after year.
He exudes an air of being invincible and all his opponents are too
impressed to break through and win. These are people like Eddy Mercks,
Bjorn Borg and Carl Lewis, to name but a few.
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