| 12. NEED TO GET MAXIMUM ATTENTION, FOCUSSED.
(1,11)
PROVER – 1: NEED TO BE A MASTER PROVER: I should get maximum
symptoms, so I will be focused upon. My proving will be considered
as the best and everything will revolve around me. I am not the
best, I feel nonsense, stupid. People will say you went all the
way, worked so hard, and didn’t get any symptoms; you are
not a good prover. If others say this than I feel down, low insulted.
PROVER – 11: Dream: I am sick and lying at home. My friends
esp. girls came to my place for some work and come to my house to
see me. I feel very happy about it. How well known I am amongst
girls.
Dream: I along with another friend go to visit an old friend who
has got recently married. She feels uneasy about entertaining us
as she is wearing a flimsy nightdress. She keeps us at the door
and doesn’t let us come in. (intruding into someone’s
privacy.) voyeurism.
13. DESIRE TO GAIN KNOWLEDGE. (1,8)
PROVER – 1: I wanted to read to be more aware. I had internal
desire to gain more knowledge. I should be ready with the answers
if somebody asks m the questions. I didn’t want myself to
get insulted.
14. LOT OF PHYSICAL ENERGY, ALRTNESS – INSPITE OF
LESS FOOD AND SLEEP. (7,9)
EXTREME PROSTRATION PHYSICALLY BUT ACTIVE MENTALLY. (8,10)
15. LAUGHING ON SILLY MATTERS – ON SMALL THINGS.
(1,9,10)
16. DIRTINESS – DIRTY TOILETS. HIMALAYA GETTING
POLLUTED. (3,5,10)
PROVER – 5: Dream: of dirt and sh*t all around.
I read an article about Himalaya getting polluted.
PROVER – 10: Dream: I visit some of my friend’s place
and there is no place to urinate, though urge is there. There is
one toilet but I feel quite awkward as there is no door and people
can see through.
The house is so beautiful and the toilet is so dirty.
17. HORRIBLE THING SAD STORIES AFFECT PROFOUNDLY. (4,8,10)
PROVER – 4: Usually I like to see action movies but this
time I refused to see it and saw a romantic stupid movie.
PROVER – 8: I was very much affected by hearing the rescue
story of a lady getting crushed under something. I also felt that
how in a normal situation I don’t get affected, it is something
disturbing, and how can I normally not feel about it.
PROVER – 10: I was very sensitive to harassment done to a
child in a movie and was very much touched by it, but at the same
time children interfering in my normal routine
I was getting very irritated.
18. THIRST INCREASED FOR COLD WATER.
19. EXTREMELY HOT. (1,5,6,8,9,10)
20. WITH FIRST DOSE MORE INDIFFERENCE BUT AFTER SECOND
DOSE MORE ASSERTIVE AND AGGRESSIVE. (4,5,10)
PROVER – 5: My attitude at home was more indifferent. Previously
things used to affect me very much and I used to cry. I just stopped
talking. I don’t care what they are saying; I don’t
let them hurt me.
21. THEME OF DANGER. (4,8,10)
PROVER – 4: Dream: someone was trying to kill me and I am
desperately trying to save myself. The situation appeared so urgent
that I was literally trying to burrow myself into my brother.
A man behind me and he is going to catch my throat.
PROVER – 8: Dream – danger of being run over by a train.
Dream: war and bombing and we are trying to save our life. A tall
hefty person stops us with not good intentions. I hit him in his
arm with a sharp instrument with an intention that he bleeds, and
he can’t follow us. Urgency that we must run before the bomb
blasts or we must attack before the person harms us. I was confident
that I am going to do it.
PROVER – 10: Dream: I was with one of my friend and some
sort of danger people were following.
22. CRAVING: MANGOES (9,10,4)
MILKSHAKES (4)
COLD DRINKS (6,8)
23. COUGH – DRY COUGH WITH THICK STRINGY EXPECTORATION,
< NIGHT. (6,10)
24. APPETITE - DECREASED. (4,6,9)
25. LAZINESS – AVERSION TO DO ANYTHING. BOREDOM.
(6,8)
Kind of inertia to start anything. Felling was let it go. I would
do it but with lot of dullness and slowness.
26. FEARS:
Sudden anxiety, panic, of being attacked by strangers, dark tunnel,
murder, stranger from behind.
Physical Symptoms
PROVER – 1
Constant nausea & vomiting.
Nausea < time of breakfast, lunch, dinner.
Ø After eating.
Vomiting – sour smelling undigested food.
Loose motions; stools – sour smelling, pain before and after
stool.
Burning after stool. Pain in abdomen comes suddenly and goes suddenly.
SOUR SMELLING DISCHARGES.
TIRED, PROSTRASTED, FEELING AS IF NOT SLEPT.
Looking very sick.
Sweat on scalp and back.
What I wanted to do did not turn up – everything was going
wrong.
PROVER – 2
Ineffectual urge, incomplete evacuation.
Skin exfoliation palm – left.
PROVER – 3
Craving for sour things – amlas.
Dream: I see I have a big patch of baldness; Alopecia. There is
a big boil on my head. I am looking at the mirror and combing my
hair “ see I have this patch.
PROVER – 4
I was hilarious and wanted to laugh all the time but with slightest
cause there was change of mood.
Constant anxiety that something is going to happen.
Scared of ghost. [T.V. serial]
Pain in chest – parasternal region < evening.
Severe headaches.
Sneezing with coryza & itching at the tip of the nose.
Pain left supraorbital – neuralgic < after sleep.
Pain in calf muscles with marked weakness
Appetite good but easy satiety.
PROVER – 6
Very sensitive, getting hurt easily, depressed at night. Crying
on small things – getting irritated. Would take minor things
in a wrong way – feel no one is on my side. Felt unwanted.
Sleeplessness till 3 a.m.
Irritation in the throat and cough
Bends double with cough
Sensation – everything is blocked in chest, in throat. Nothing
comes out no discharges.
Feverish, body ache, cold and throbbing headache.
Headache – bursting, < afternoon. > Putting ice-cubes
on forehead. Headache increased with fever. Burning with fever.
Pain in abdomen – distention > eructation, pressure, sleep
in knee-chest position.
Felling very lazy to go out or work.
Purchased light coloured items, jute coloured.
PROVER – 8
More imaginative, drawing pictures.
Boredom inertia to start anything new. But when pushed for work
did it very well.
Dullness and slowness. Desire to lie down. Heaviness in eyelids,
had to forcibly keep them wide open.
Headache – throbbing – just above right eye –
with nausea.
Nausea < after lunch. There was a feeling that if I would vomit
I would feel better or after eructation I would feel better.
Tired and soreness in muscles – just wanted to sleep.
Pain in lower abdomen as if stretched.
Dream: conflict to help family or kidnappers.
Running nose – right nostril – watery discharge. Sneezing
< fast fan.
PROVER – 9
Headache – right supraorbital.
Coryza – right nostril.
Confusion about day and dates.
Dream: eruptions on hand – 13.
Small red eruption on the face – very painful.
PROVER – 10
Dreams of dead grandfather. [Repeatedly]
Blurring of vision and heaviness in eyes – had to blink constantly.
Dull frontal headaches. < Afternoon, it increased with heat,
> tea.
Nausea with headaches. < Night.
Fascinated by white colour, Snow Mountains.
Boil in interscapular region.
At night while writing letter – felt she couldn’t move
the fingers.
Drowsiness.
Sleeplessness – feeling hot – changing places.
Dream: beautiful landscape, greenery, breeze, beautiful feeling.
Physically weak but could do lot of mental work.
PROVER – 11
Hawk on & off to clear my voices.
Greenish mucus balls.
Nose block – lt. side.
Thirst increased.
Foreign body sensation in gums.
Drawing cartoon faces and other pictures, scribbling on tissues
in the café.
Memory weak for proper names; esp. of colleague.
Constipation – had to strain for stool, unsatisfactory feeling.
Loss of sense of direction.
Discussion
Based on our proving experience, few points
emerge which in turn need to be examined and confirmed by others
to understand this substance better.
The correlation between a physical symptom
seen in provers and the most important feeling felt by most provers.
The persistent catarrh lodged in the throat which required a great
amount of hawking and in the process giving irritating feeling in
the throat was found very similar to the annoyance and irritation
one feels from an unwanted intruder who invades your privacy and
behaves like a ‘parasite’ living on its host. It is
interesting that the word ‘bother’ came up frequently
during the proving.
Some provers along with two supervisors
felt a distinct foreign body sensation in the eyes, ears and gums.
One may have to look out for this remedy or be alerted when one
finds the above symptoms in one or more mucus membranes or orifice.
An irritating rash on different on different
parts of the body which is accompanied by severe itching aggravated
in heat and an inflammatory reaction in the skin, could make this
remedy a very useful one for all sorts of allergic skin reactions
with intolerance to heat. However it is worth noting that most insect
based remedies have in common, an extreme intolerance to heat. (Apis,
Formica Rufa and Blatta in particular share this aspect.)
Some provers had an irresistible desire
to draw or scribble on whatever was available. Some doodled. Some
kept writing their name or signatures and some drew sketches of
faces and figures. This can be likened to graffiti on places where
one is not supposed to draw or write anything. One area where one
sees this sort of obscene drawing or writing is in toilets. The
theme of dirty toilets came up repeatedly in the proving. The sexually
perverted theme too came up. This could be a classical combination
of how an individual leaves behind cheap vulgarity on the walls
to be forcibly read by the others visiting the place and hence deriving
an inner thrill from that inner experience. The theme of voyeurism
too came up in a big way.
During our concluding group meeting, another
interesting theme that came up was of vulgar display of wealth in
weddings through showy dresses, over spending of money and heavy
jewelry. As one prover put it ‘ jewelry should enhance the
beauty of a woman but should never overshadow her completely.’
She along with many others found the need to do just that during
the proving. So this is another area where this remedy may be found
indicated.
Lastly some interesting quotes from a poem. “Mosquitoes.”
That further highlights the finding of our proving.
“ Queer, with your thin wings and your
streaming legs,
How you sail like a heron, or a dull blot of air,
Nothingness,
Yet what an aura surrounds you;
Your evil little aura, prowling and casting
Numbness on my mind.
That is your trick, your bit of filthy magic;
Invisibility, and the anesthetic power.
To deaden my attention in your direction
I behold you stand
For a second enspasmed in oblivion.
Obscenely ecstasied
Sucking live blood,
My blood.
Such silence such suspended transport,
Such gorging,
Such obscenity of trespass
Can I not overtake you?
Are you one too many for me?
Winged victory?
Am I not mosquito enough to out – mosquito you?
Anonymous.
FROM DR. SANGEETA CHAWLA’S
BOOK:
Anxiety.
Indolence – aversion to work.
Del. poisoned he has been.
Interruption < mental symptoms
Fear of death.
Memory – weakness of
Impatience.
Restlessness, walking amel.
Source: the Remedy, Culex Musca, was obtained from Roy and CO,
Mumbai.
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