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That diagnosis was quite intimidating, I have to admit. I had no
idea how I would organise the information I had about Isis, or where
to start looking in the repertory for her trouble. Nothing seemed
to stand out as "characteristic"...and since the "cancer"
was already progressed enough to bring about her instinctual dying
behaviour, I didn't feel I could find anything characteristic about
her case. I decided I didn't know, for certain, that she did have
cancer at all: but I did know with certainty that she had -
1)asthma in the past;
2)steroid treatment, which would have compromised the liver
3)jaundice--indicating liver dysfunction and blood problems
4)a limp on her left hind leg, which my uncle believes came from
a climbing/jumping injury that must have injured the bone, but
which may have been some referred pain from internal organ damage.
5)a love of massage, or being physically stroked or touched.
It was the one stimulus which brought a minor response: what our
repertories refer to as "desire to be magnetized".
Looking up jaundice in the repertory gave me a moderately sized
rubric (Skin, discolouration, yellow, jaundice, icterus;)...and
further along, a rubric for jaundice as a concommitant symptom,
showing only one remedy: phosphorus. Since the jaundice was accompanied
by cancer, I could consider this small rubric. Phosphorus is also
listed under the rubrics Respiration, asthmatic (quite a large rubric)
as well as Respiration, difficult. I asked my uncle when Isis's
breathing difficulties would come up, and he recalled that they
always started when he and my aunt would come home from work--usually
when they were preparing or eating dinner, or shortly afterward.
That would be in the early evening--before 9pm or so, a time modality
which also fit in well with the remedy.
There was little to go on for a mental emotional state, though
I did know that much of the instinctual dying behaviour of cats
is precipitated by fear and self-protection: they are afraid of
predators, afraid of being attacked while vulnerable--and this motivates
their instinct to hide, make themselves small in stature, stop eating
and drinking (so they leave no feces or urine traces around for
other animals to detect them) and stop responding to stimuli around
them. Its a very fearful state. I decided on the phosphorus because
it is often used in euthanasia, particularly when this state is
present. I felt that if I couldn't help Isis get better, death by
phosphorus would be far less jarring than death by injection at
the hands of the vet. So I went back to the vet's and had him bring
Isis out. In front of him, I gave Isis a dose of Phosphorus 30c,
as it was the one vial of phosphorus available in my uncle's neighbourhood!
The vet assured me that he would continue his tests and call me
later on that evening to discuss her cancer, and putting her down.
I decided I would just bring her home, if that was all right with
him; I told him I knew she may not get better and that I would be
returning to him to put her down, if it was requried.
Later than night, I was supposed to meet with the vet to pick up
Isis's test results, and he didn't show up for his appointment!
Just as well, I thought, as my uncle was devastated to learn about
the vet's intentions to put Isis down. I went home and asked my
uncle to give me a call the next day to let me know if there were
any changes.
Isis got better.
The next day, her appetite returned and the clarity had returned
to her eyes and skin. After two days, Isis used the litter box again
and had begun to want to go outside to run around. She was observant
and alert while outdoors, preferring to walk around and sit in the
shade or follow my uncle around as he tended his garden...and it
was in watching her moving that he noticed her long-standing "limp"
had disappeared. She did, however, have a funny new habit of licking
the paving stones on the patio--something we all thought strange.
She clearly needed the nutrients she was getting from the clay and
sand she was eating! I thought about Pica remedies, and thought
about redosing with the phosphorus, but the behaviour didn't last
very long and then, once again, her picture changed.
About a week later, my uncle and aunt called to tell me that Isis
was like a totally different cat--energetic, bouncy, affectionate
again. But, they noted, she was developing a strange swelling under
her lower jaw--did I know anything about what that was? They described
her symptoms over the next few days as "strange and bizarre",
as Isis developed what looked like a huge blister under her chin,
which discharged a watery, whitish fluid tinged slightly with blood.
I told my uncle I would look for another remedy, but when I asked
him about Isis's pain from her symptoms, he said she wasn't experiencing
any--she just had this unsightly bulge under there, some of the
hairs were falling off on the skin covering the bulge, but she was
not really bothered by it and ate and played with much more vigour
than she had in a long time. I considered "waiting it out"
to see what happened, and I never did give another remedy. Whatever
it was that was happening came and went over the course of a week.
As long as they kept her chin clean, and left her to her own devices,
Isis was "putting up with" the new symptom well. It resolved
in a few days and she was as good as she always was.
Early this past summer, at the age of 17, Isis passed away of old
age. She lived for 5 years after her "terminal" cancer
was diagnosed, and never suffered another asthma attack or limp
as a result of her adventures again; nor was she ever seen licking
the patio stones or suffering from the skin ailment which developed
after the phosphorus was given. I never did have to give her another
dose of the phos 30c, or of any other remedy--and now, looking back
on the case, I can see that any intervention to "deal with"
the symptoms she exhibited after that dose would probably have complicated
the case!
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